The Journey

C Patrick McIlvain  on facebook ...

"... I went to see the "Dallas Buyer Club" this afternoon. I have been putting it off for a very long time. Just too close to my life. In 1986 I was told that I needed to get my things in order as I would not live longer that 3 years at the most if lucky.

Well I am not lucky - I am blessed. I am still only HIV+. I am a "slow progresser" and I will grant you that- - in so many ways.... I was a participant of THAT very first "double blind" trial. I still have the first bottle that I was given not knowing "sugar or AZT. I was given AZT from the very start. The VA and Baylor where conducting the trial here in Houston.

I then had this, I know this is going to sound just a bit mental, but remember who is typing here, "awareness" that presented its' self to me - "They are giving you too much they are trying to kill you" so I cut my dosage in half.

I took part in some local demonstrations. My major depression was brought to the surface. My life started to change completely. It was when I reached my Long Range Goal -age 40 that I know the educated public did not have all of the knowledge nor answers - thus not all of the power.

So I started on this awaking life journey that I have begun to find out that I do have what it takes. And I really do like what I have rediscovered about just who I was born to be.....
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Mary Lynch "I am so glad you are still with us and hope you will be for quite a few years yet! Hugs!!! 8 hours ago "

John Kenward "Lovely"

Barbara Madera "Quite a a life story there, Patrick. Amazing!"

SrGio Cesard "I lost my best friend because of HIV, I know...money rules the world... 7 hours ago"

Wendy Schroell "I didn't know any of this but have always loved you and been inspired by you, Patrick, and I know there are lots more like me out here 7 hours ago "

Gumaro Armando Silva "I'm with Wendy!"

Michael Hart "Hugs." 7 hours ago

Robert Kory Shipman "So glad you are here! You always bring a smile to my face! 7 hours ago"

Rhonda Omberg "A friend has had HIV since 84. He is still kicking too, but it has been a struggle. He had a heart attack at age 45 and had some issues with the drug cocktail's effect on his facial muscles. But he is alive. 7 hours ago "

Deborah Bell "We needed you too much for you not to be around. Keep telling the truth about your life and keep the dialogue going. It is important! 7 hours ago"

Robert Martinez "Thanks for the information and the courage to tell it, so glad u r still around to let us know, keep up the good fight my friend 7 hours ago"

Trinidad Garcia "I watched it today too. By the way you have many more years of life because we have lots to do and you will be here to witness all your hard work. Love ya Patrick. 6 hours ago"

Robert Martinez "We actually saw it a few weeks ago, great performances and great story line 6 hours ago "

Deward Bowles "What a journey Patrick. 2 hours ago"

Elvia J. Delacerda "Thanks for sharing 2 hours ago"

Robbie Mcelroy "Well Christmas at Agnes's house wouldn't be the same without you!"